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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

Yeah I can understand that Zico. Was going to say there's a lot of delivery jobs about. I did it for a while some years back when I was struggling for other work and I used to quite enjoy it.

"Tom, yeah although I couldn't at the time. My job is driving but must confess I hate the evening shifts now as I get older I struggle in the dark more than I did when I was younger."

"*day, my dad already existed"

Steve! Seeing you pop on this thread has made my dad. Good to hear things are improving mate. Hold fast x

Yo able to drive Zico?

My brother has murders with them he has to threaten them with court every years and then they fold. His back is so bad he cannot walk and on tramadol. Just persevere and get what you are entitled to

PS my main problem was that it was and is a variable illness so I might be okay for months and then it hits. Even had help from the CAB to complete the form but to no avail. I'm in a calm period at the moment but forever will not be able to move my head sideways or up and down without things moving.

"Good luck westham. Oh I know the health pro (use the word loosely) lied about several things, allegedly. The tribunal dismissed my GP as a liar and mixed up reports from different doctors etc. And I had a new tribunal because I found out the doctor on the panel was no longer registered with the GMC. Me being a smart arse finding that out didn't help my cause. Sadly I was only fully diagnosed after the event when I saw a brilliant consultant in London. Prior to that all the MRIs and tests only pointed to either vertigo, migraine assisted vertigo or unknown cause. The thing that worries me now is the episode's ban be triggered by stress and its difficult not to be at the moment."

"The company who deal with PIP or ESA claims are US companies and denying those benefits is there bonus, Go to your GP ask for all you medical records by law they must give them to you with 20 working days. Its a long road but you have to start somewhere you should not be going through what you are going through as you have a debilitating illness. I have all my medical records and an MRI brain scan coming soon. Its looking like my kids will be here in 3 weeks and then I will see how I feel and some lighter work. I have my GP on my side"

"And now my freezer has condensation on it! FFS. I knew this would happen. I suffer with vestibular hypofunction, which is basically buggered balance organs in my ears. Every few years or so I get major vertigo for months on end where my head spins several times daily. My last major episode in 2015 was so bad I was made redundant and couldn't work for quite sometime. The delightful people at the DWP thought otherwise so lost my case at a tribunal, even though the judge admitted no one would employ me. So with no Employment Support Allowance I had to live on the savings I had and that dwindled, so knew it would catch up in the end. There is a small private pension which isn't enough for retirement but it would get me through this shit but if I touch it before 55 you get hammered with tax. So few options but I'll talk to the CAB, thanks."

"It does it seems like its endless at times but for me its a state of mind I get myself into and sometimes I am the only one who who thinks it a big deal, Citizens advice will open a case file for you see if you can apply for any support with costs"

"Thanks westham, and now my PC has gone into a start/stop loop so lord knows how much that will cost. Never rains but pours."

There is no worse of better positions when it comes to depression and mental illness zico. Go to citizens advice and they can advise you how to manage dept. If you have a 9 to 5 job there is some seasonal work about now sorting office weekend work etc. I know how you feel mate sometimes its overwhelming

"Must confess this last week or two is the worst I have ever felt worry wise. I live pretty much bill to bill as that's all my income allows me to and now today I've received my energy tariff prices from Octopus as I was put with them after Avro went bust. Put it this way I could only just afford the Avro prices and jesus the increase is savage in comparison and that's nothing on what could happen next year. What with fuel, council tax going up by potentially 5%, my car is 15 years old, my boiler 20 and I have crossed fingers both will survive a while longer I'm in a right state of worry on how I can cope with the price of living on my wage. A change of job may be the only option but in my early 50's with no Liam Neeson specialist set of skills that's not going to be easy. More clothes with the heating off is my only plan at the moment and it's only October. It was bad enough dealing with mum for the last few years as dementia left her in care, where she still is but now all these money worries is a real concern. Christmas is definitely cancelled and I'm literally hoping on a lottery miracle like millions of others. Sorry, I know many are in a wors4e position but just needed tp get it off my chest."

"1st thing anyone should do if they're feeling down is get off social media. Have a read of this from Fake Carlton Cole. It's brilliant. I was almost tempted to create a new thread on it, but that's not my style. https://medium.com/@_CarltonCole9/twitter-mental-health-and-me-b0b8e820edac"

"Yes it's great to hear you are well Steve, best wishes."

"Yes it's great to hear you are well Steve, best wishes."

"Steve, so glad to hear you're doing well mate."

"Thanks for all the messages, very much appreciated Its been a long road to get back to some sort of normality and desire for life again but I'm getting there. The icing on the cake will be getting my partner over from the Philippines just in time for Christmas. Another 3 points on the road always brings a smile too. Irons"

"Well done everyone, and welcome back Steve. Made my day see you on here."

"I read this thread often and with great interest, but not having never suffered from MI I really have very little (apart from support) to offer. However I did lose my cousin to depression (alcohol finally taking him) several years ago. I knew absolutely nothing about his troubles. He hid it, and the excessive drinking that accompanied it, very well, until the damage was done. I read this thread and see others who are unfortunately suffering, or have suffered, offering unconditional support to each other. As it should be (in my humble), regardless of who we support. Dean was a hammer. How I wish I, and indeed others close to him, knew of his pain. But what strikes me most is how I wish he had access to this thread, to seek the help he needed and the support of others who’ve walked the same road. To those who offer support on this thread, and those that seek it, I salute you all!"

"Blimey, what a pleasant surprise Steve. Great to hear you’re doing well and on the up. I’m sure things will fall into place for you now and this thread definitely helps. A problem shared is a problem halved."

"Great to hear Steve is safe and well, we are all rooting for you and any others who are struggling"

"Big love to all you boys. Keep sharing, it really helps. You’ve helped me as well, more than you will know. I totally understand you taking a break from the internet Steve, I have done the same and it helps to clear the head from all the noise we get around us these days. Not all of that noise is online, but it plays a big part so it does help to switch off for a stretch. I’m also delighted you’re still here and finding a way. Thanks for updating us mate. I’m going to offer my number to anyone (via Whomail) who needs a chat. I haven’t got all the answers at all, but I’ve been on the brink a few times and it helps to share coping strategies. Big hugs to you all xx"

Steve you sound like exactly where I am mate. Good for you. This thread is such a positive one I love it. I wish all on here all the best. Life can be hard but the Irons family is there for everyone COYI xxx