Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[ted fenton]

Great to hear some good positive news ! Keep it going lads WHO is massive.

[charleyfarley]

Well done all and keep at it Pents

[charleyfarley]

Well done all and keep at it Pents

[lab]

Well done chaps .

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"Pents, Seeing you post has made my day, no, my week. Long way to go but stellar progress x"

[smasher]

I'm not out the woods yet with my shit but good mates wrapped around ya really does help so if you need anything at all I'm here

[Pentonville]

"I know smasher and glad ur ok. To think 7 weeks ago I was trying to help u. Shows how it can creep up. Lee, yes ur right. MpI and westham 67 and block and Panama hat and crassus and goose and the many many mails I've had. I did read them all. I just couldn't reply without breaking down."

[goose]

MPI is an absolute legend.

[Lee Trundle]

"Big pat on the back for MPI there, too."

[smasher]

One Love Marc x I was in contact with Block to see how you was.

[Pentonville]

"Thanks mate. Fuck me this is the hardest shit I've ever been through. Still not out of woods physically but brain is thinking straighter. If anyone thinks a full round up of what happened helps then I'm happy to update you all but if u feel u would rather watch paint dry then don't read. What I will say is I think I'm now the guru on depression, anxiety, binge drinking alcoholism, mear death experiences and bullying autistic estranged wives. I could not even string a sentence together 3 weeks ago. At Xmas I lost my wife and child. She hated France and left and it sent me into a spiral as im sure many will remember. I pulled myself out and vowed never again. I was doing well but all the while I had my ex begging me to impregnate her as she felt it was the only way her family would accept me back in the fold. I came back to UK and found out she was texting people in France to sneakily get copies of my keys so she could get into my home and take toys and personal stuff. Luckily my friends told her to do one. Everyone who has met her knows she is a wrongun. So I cam back and was doing OK then had a slip up in February or March back in France. Came home and she started the whole trying to get her pregnant thing which I could not understand and it was messing with my head and everytine I told her what I thought of her, she treated visitation ending with my son whom I'm used to getting 3 days a week. June 4th came. I invited her to a family bbq to celebrate Queen and she got smashed and I was sober as I'd given up drinking and was walking 12 miles a day which she says wasn't an attempt at fitness but an attempt to sling dick around town. Weird. Then I go offered a job as a caretaker at a school and my family were so proud but her response was to say be careful of of 6 formers. I asked if she was accusing me of being a peado and she says aren't all men? So it fast became apparent she cannot eevr handle be being happy or doing well. So the bbq ended and she stayed over. Not together I add. In the morning she was so fucking rude to me, I snapped. I dont know why. Her and her family bully me. They are all women, all the men have left the womean so I have to deal with her and her female relatives. Something snapped and I kicked her and my son out. Closed my curtains, blocked everyone and decided I was gonna write a letter telling the world what a bully she was and kill myself with booze. For 6 weeks I slept no more than 1 hour a night..I had a pot noodle every 2 days and drank about 20 cans of K cider everyday. I sporadically would unblock someone and say something then block again. I was pissed out of my mind. Mpi sent police around for a welfare check. They were great and spoke to me for an hour. They couldn't belive I was standing or at least alive. My home was covered in cans..maybe 600 or 700 all over the floor. Flies everywhere. But what they and me realised is I had a cupboard full of valium and q draw full of knives. This wasnt suicide this was a cry for help. It started a process..2 days later a doctor called and issued drugs. Then the mental health until called. Then the drink and drugs department at NHS called. I began to communicate with MPI a bit and my mother and here I am how ever many weeks later still alive and walking 4 miles a day and eating but still having to drink on advice as they feel if I stop I could have a seizure. They wanted me to drop by 20% a week but I can't do that . I wanted to stop so I switched to Irish coffee's.i have 2 or 3 q day with food and I have not experienced any withdrawals or seizures.. On Saturday I have lover function text which we think is going to be OK I've shown no signs of liver damage..its my heart which is why the beta blockers and valium are being used to keep me stable. That could be the organ that needs most care. Once that's done then my CBT starts again. I've kinda fucked myself as I lost all work and spent all money on booze so I've got to confront the fact I could be evicted. I don't think go fund me enjoys helping wankers so I'm just gonna have to take that on the chin. I also am now aware that my wife has all the shit she needs to fuck me if she wants regarding access to my son so all in all a bad heart and depression is the legacy of this latest compete breakdown. I thibk I need to help people one day if I'm around and show them how to get off the booze. I disagree with the advice currently out there. They know fuck all. Anyway that's the gist. Thank you to everyone and for those that have my number, I can reply now.. I love everyone one of you and I'm determined not to be a lost cause."

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"Good to see you, Marc son."

[Pentonville]

Hello gents.

[brabrook]

Hope all goes well 67

[ted fenton]

Hope it all works out well for you 67 you certainly deserve a chance to enjoying life again. All the best.

[Sydney_Iron]

"Good luck with it 67, hopefully this is all part of the bounceback. All the best."

[Westham67]

"Thanks SOH. In my field, nothing fazes me. I have one interview with a contractor for HS2 and I have to have a second technical in the middle of August they won't start until October The one I was supposed to have today was put back to next Wednesday 9 30am for HS2 technical risk manager which is identifying mainly design issues that hold up delivery The way UC works is you don't come off it until you have earned over X amount for 6 months anything before that your rents gets apid"

[Side of Ham]

What one is second nature to you 67? Meaning which one is likely to cause you extra stress etc? I’d go with the one that you can possibly do on a bad day? I know none of the above may help….sorry fella.

[Mike Oxsaw]

"67 - get your domestics sorted out first - from the times you've mentioned things are aligned to do that anyway. If you are then concerned that you'll lose your accommodation should you take a job if offered, I seriously doubt that would happen - you will have been given that accommodation because you are homeless, not jobless. It will probably be via a housing agency (something like Peabody or a local variation thereof) under an assured tenancy: what will probably happen is that you will be asked to cover the rent yourself once in employment, rather than have the council/government pay it. If it was me, I'd go for it, but as I don't know your full history, that's advice you probably to seek from your local Citizens' Advice Bureau. Being in work always makes it easer to get another contract, but you've probably already worked that one out for yourself, already. Bear in mind I picked up all and anything I know on this subject in about 2015, so things may have changed."

[Westham67]

"A good thread for sage advice. I am appealing to the high court because the enforcement agency fucked it up and sent me a sheepish letter after I informed them of what Ithey had done I went on homeless and stayed at my sister's place (No link) in Broadstairs about a month ago. I showed a social worker my doctor's letter and she said I get will full PIP and ESA. I got a call from Thanet council and they are talking to me next Tuesday about somewhere to live for 5 months before I go into sheltered housing where I will a studio flat with a warden on site and alarm cords all over the place The dilemma I applied for a job with HS2 about 6 weeks ago or more for a role as a technical risk manager. I have an interview on Friday (HS2 is the same track system in Qatar) One of the bidders for HS2 track work (They will get one section at least) contacted me about 3 weeks to basically run everything for them here. I did the first interview 2 weeks ago and now I have the technical interview at the end of next month. The work will start in October ish For this country it will be decent money , what to do ?"

[Mike Oxsaw]

"Good news regarding Pents. If that's because he's fucked off all social media (including this site), more power to him - ask most people to do that and they'll look at you as if you're suggesting that their first-born should be summarily executed. With regard to the other with problems shared on here, I hope and trust that the adage ""No news is good news"" applies and hope that the recent ""Shirley Temple moment"" will not dissuade you from achieving your goals in your own ways."

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"Charley, I am in touch with Pents, he doesn't want to have details on this thread yet, wrong time, but I am at liberty to WHO mail those that ask directly with a summary."

[charleyfarley]

"Well said MPI perhaps an update would be good on people's welfare Block, westham67, Pentonville, Smasher etc etc"

[charleyfarley]

"Well said MPI perhaps an update would be good on people's welfare Block, westham67, Pentonville, Smasher etc etc"

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"Right. Good. Reset. We all know what Sacrosanct means. We all know that the blue text was to set a bar for Willtell AND others and we all know that Willtell cares about what is written about him on a small, sparsely populated West Ham United forum, far more than he cares about the mental welfare on his fellow hammers. Lets get back to this being what it was supposed to be. Its monday and the line is drawn. Best wishes all."