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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

Westham67 7:22 Sun May 29 That was hard reading your last post 67 surely there is some help out there for you also could you not talk to your family ? I'm sure there must be someone who will listen to you !! I really do feel for you mate and hope that you start smiling again soon.

"Thanks one iron I will have alisten. I know I am in a bad way when I google ""Does funeral insurance cover suicide"" and its 12 to 24 months. To be honest that's the only thing holding me back the cost to my family"

"yesturday, i done a podcast for sam delaney on mens mental health, witch will be on his site next week.i think its called reset, or reset extre. hope it helps people ."

Irish Hammer 9:00 Fri May 20 You only hear the bad side effects when it comes to withdrawal symptoms as if they are not so bad no one would post it like me. You can get a pill cutter off of Amazon if you have I have solid tablets mine were soluble If you are taking a lot of meds like I had to there is a good chance some are conflicting so have a google. I was taking an antipsychotic and a blood thinner that gave me cramp in my legs and then an anti depressant that you could not take with any heart medication. I had pains in my liver region and had to google in and change antidepressant

"Seconded. ZMA used to knock me out, then I had kids and didn’t need any help falling asleep."

"If anyone's struggling with sleep, I cannot recommend zinc and magnesium enough. No medication, no hard to pronounce pills etc., just the supplements you can buy in any supermarket for about 50p. You might not sleep for longer or go asleep quicker but you'll sleep deeper and wake up feeling better. Gives you a good starting point for better sleep habits."

"67, Olanzapine is one of the collections of different crazy persons drugs I’ve been on since 2018. Have to say it’s been brilliant for me but fuck it’s a nasty strong little bugger.such a Tiny little tab with that innocent ‘o’ in the middle. I’d be lost without It. On 10mg now, really hoping to chop that down a lot as the side effects are so cuntish. Not. Sure how it’ll go through tbh"

Cheers lab it seems that the older I get the more things I have to give up ;-( Nice one 67 I'm also getting broken sleep instead of sleeping for England but well worth the horrid feeling of waking up to that extreme feeling of anxiety.

Well done ted. I did the same with an antipsychotic called Olanzapine I weaned myself off of it and all I had at the end of 4 months was broken sleep

"Great news Ted , well done you ."

I'm now on 25mg Fentanyl patches down from 75mg & 50mg I start 12mg on Saturday and I feel so much better and not waking up feeling mega anxious ! Seems like my self diagnosis has worked I really hope so as I really couldn't go on feeling so bad. Hope everyone on this thread is feeling better.

"I will bring some meaning to the last paragraph below Our generation was brought up with the ""Just get on with it attitude "". Since the late 80s, we have had the consumerist rat race going on where so get themselves into mortgages and new cars with the added pressure of dept. So we are not sure how to cope with it so some take their own lives, Whereas the younger generation knows nothing else but this pressure and the meds and therapy that go with it which is not stigmatised as it was when our generation were kids"

"I am accustomed to upping or cutting down med dosages giving lousy side effects. I went from 50mg to 100mg of Sertraline on Friday last week and yesterday I had the shittest feeling day in a long time and could not of bed to an interview which I did it today instead. My shit day was started by a vivid dream about a MATE who gassed himself in his old man's motor on his 19th birthday 4/11/85 and that reminded me of another MATE overdosing on heroin at the same sort of age I watched something on Iplayer about professor Green old man who liked himself. A proper professor of psychology said that in the 90s the average age of male suicide in men in their 20s and 30s and now its 40s and 50s. because we are the generation that is between the older generation who would not speak about mental health and the younger generation who do speak about it freely. My old man boxed for the army and fought in Malaysia's ""Emergency"". He had PTSD for sure but he was more violent than depressed not to his family just to anyone who the thought had crossed him. My daughter 30 (No link ) has no issue going to counselling"

"Bitterly disappointed, but looking to take the positives and move forward. Anyone who wants who needs help doing so, my WHO Mail is always open."

"What a night gents, WHAT A NIGHT. Regardless of what happens, we endure or enjoy together. IRONS!!"

Irish Hammer 3:15 Sat Apr 23 Wise words indeed. You inspire me to push on snd get on with my life. I wish you and your family all the best

Mace66 9:54 Sun Apr 24 It does doesn't it Mace I know it was 2008 as that season marked my 50th anniversary since my Dad first took me to Upton Park . I never forget people that help me out !!! ;-)

Mace66 9:54 Sun Apr 24 It does doesn't it Mace I know it was 2008 as that season marked my 50th anniversary since my Dad first took me to Upton Park . I never forget people that help me out !!! ;-)

"ed fenton 3:14 Mon Apr 11 Seems like another lifetime now, Ted, down there in Chav corner IIRC. All the best mate and the rest of the boys in here COYI"

"Thanks67 mate, All our own personal issues are as significant o us as anyone else's is to you. Walk you own path and try channel your sadness to fight n rage n hate towards any issues / illness or struggles you have. its like running up a big mountain.yes it will hurt like like hell but when you get there its the greatest achievement to feel reborn and invincible. Send square, face you issues head on, and tell it to fucking come on then and fight whoever you can Its weirdly enough not about winning, its about competing and honouring yourself along the way that counts. I got gutting news yesterday but it just joins the pile of it and I get up and go as best I can today, and hopefully the a little nice things (like my missus driving an hour to the hospital so I can meet with her in the carpark for half an hour. That's special and worth living for. Allow yourself to find the happy parts in your day today and drop your macho/tough guy side and embrace and enjoy the purity in them and hold them tight. Life is special and wonderful, hold onto it, its not a competition, its a celebration Sorry for waffling on. Happy Saturday all. Irons x"

Irish Hammer 10:36 Sun Apr 3 My woes pale into insignificance compared to yours. No one expected me to live including the doctors and here I am today scuffed and bruised with stuffing knocked out of me but still alive Stay strong mate be resilient you can do it

"Brilliant, hadn't seen that üëè"

Love it Pent ! Not sure if you've seen this but I love it.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sz2zg32Lww4

Nice one Ted. I think we all have a spring in our step today. I'm at my 3.5 Yr old soft play place proudly wearing my 1980 FA Cup Final tracksuit top thinking how long ago Xmas now feels. COYI

"Feeling elated after last nights result still buzzing especially seeing Tony Cottee leading the ""West ham Are Massive"" I'm also feeling better in myself and think my body has now accepted the cut of 50gr Fentanyl down to 25mg on this for 1 to 2 months then go down to 12.5 mg. Wishing you all well."