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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

*What MPI posted

What MPI I know what charlie does to your mind and makes you into something you are not. I am ashamed of myself for all of the people who I ripped off I was an animal and just need gear. Clucking when it runs out at 4 am and all brainstorming where you can get more. Then on the comedown not sleeping beating yourself thinking what did I do what did I say when I was out of it .Part of recovery is forgiving yourself and moving on and your close friends and family know it was the drugs that turned you into that person

"Moncurs Putting Iron 1:27 Fri Jan 7 WHU(Exeter) 8:05 Tue Dec 21 I agree. I have three cats and one is asleep on my lap as I write this. On days I didn’t want to get up and there seemed no point in anything after Gail died, they would be on the bed waiting when I woke up, then wanting food. I’d get up to feed them and then I was in the day. The days weren’t always great but they were there. They are a link to her too. I hated cats and was allergic to them when we first got together. She got rid of the cats she had to be with me. I never thanked her for that – I should have as I can’t be without these three here now. And, yea, I talk to them. Why not? They don’t disagree with anything I say."

Moncurs Putting Iron 1:27 Fri Jan 7

Moncurs Putting Iron 1:27 Fri Jan 7

"Mace66 6:26 Mon Jan 3 Spot on. Pents, look at it this way do the same lousy thing, get the same lousy results. No judgement or stigma here mate, only relief that you have an expert you can relate to in country and you are on a different path. Much gratitude to Peroni, Block and goose for keeping the light on for a fellow WHOer in the darkness. Been here for nearly twenty years now, and when this place is bad it's bad but when this place is good it is Brilliant. Happy New Year people, keep talking."

Is Pentoville Hairy Spotter? Similarities are unreal. £70.00 = 2gs. Only help those that want to be helped.

"Winter walks on iplayer is good, relaxing to watch."

Irish Whomailed you mate.

If anyone knows Pentonville personally could you pop me a Whomail please. Thank you.

"What Francois said Hopefully it’s all gone through and you’ll be getting the short term help you need for your own safety over the next 4 weeks. You’ll be ok Pentonville, it may not feel like it now but you will be … all the best"

"Good luck Pentoville Being sectioned sounds worse than it is Hopefully it will keep you safe and allow your head to relax Looks like it’s exactly what you need, you will find people in similar and worse situations hope you make it thru"

"Good luck Pentoville Being sectioned sounds worse than it is Hopefully it will keep you safe and allow your head to relax Looks like it’s exactly what you need, you will find people in similar and worse situations hope you make it thru"

"Get well Pents, West Ham family behind you, and live for your boy, he will need his dad. ‚öí"

Warchild 10:55 Sun Jan 2 f he is sectioned then he won't have much contact with the outside world only visitors. No news is good news in these cases. He has to get sober and stay sober before starting with his personal issue

"I think drying out from liquor could take longer than most other withdrawals , I only drink/drunk beer so don’t know that harder version . I jonesed alone off Methadone ( in the attic of my Mums house , my wife had left me by then & I was rock bottom ) but Penters needs some recognized assistance as well as the will to turn things around ."

"I think drying out from liquor could take longer than most other withdrawals , I only drink/drunk beer so don’t know that harder version . I jonesed alone off Methadone ( in the attic of my Mums house , my wife had left me by then & I was rock bottom ) but Penters needs some recognized assistance as well as the will to turn things around ."

"67 , shit that is harsh , the poor parents . I almost always jacked up the Opiates with an upper ( mostly Sulphate or Ritalin ) so only ended up OD’ing just the once in the bogs at Piccadilly Circus on Palfium , woke up half an hour later with a sprained neck ."

Fuck me this is hard reading. If anyone has any updates on Pentonville over the coming days please post them.

I tried smack once and didn't like it. We were banging up speed and temazepam in the early mid-80s. My mate has hep C from sharing sets. A bird I was sharing with and shagging got diagnosed with AIDS which was a death sentence at that time. I had a test and I was told I am a very lucky man when my test came back negative Smack wiped out 4 brothers I knew from the same family I knew all ODs another mate whose father intruded him to samck ODed

"Marc , you won’t die of the withdrawals as long as you taper down with Valium on a regulated squedule , the Ashton Method I think it’s called. You will need some anticonvulsants for the first few days then into the Vallies . I’’ve got that massive vid of Raff , Get clean for him mate . 2 years ago I was told I might need a liver transplant , had a tumour there , decades of drinking on top of Hep C after being down the Dilly in the 80’s with all the Smack & Diconal mischief down there . I will alsways have Cirrhosis ( tumour was ablated ) but can still have a few bevies when I’m in a cool social situation every couple of weeks odd with little harm done . Like others have said on this thread things do get better 🙏🏻⚒"

"My ex- was an absolute bitch - denied me access to my 3 daughters for the best part of 2 years after our divorce but I kept at it, even when it looked all over, never gave up that last glimmer of hope, and that pulled me through. Bottom line was that after her fighting like a possessed demon for all that time they came to live with me in Sweden and we wandered about Europe until we settled in the Netherlands, where they still are. Never give up hope - even in the darkest of hours. The sun will rise on a new day."

Knock the booze and gear. Get heathy. See your son again. Today’s the start of that. Good luck fella x

He has kept me talking for 3 days. Told me his love for Fulham and then this morning he text saying you beat the Palace scum A French doctor. The thing is I got to let him into my home later and I'm ashamed. I thought he is just a brain doctor so I told him I've wet myself and can't go to toilet and he said don't worry Marc I'm also medcially trained doctor. He also runs a charity that helps people who worked in entertainment that suffer mental disorder. I mean the man is a god for me but I'm starting to shit myself at the thought of handing myself over to someonee He is driving over himself to get me. But this is the moment isn't it. I've got to want it. Gents my brain is fucked.

"You said yourself that this doctor is amazing. Give him a chance to work his magic then, he might surprise you and this might be a turning point. Just give it a chance."