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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

Whoever has the video of my son saying we are massive. Spread it to everyone please. That's my boy. Gents I think I'm done I'm going to say hello to gavros and pig destroyer and all the others. We will be looking down on you all. Be good. Be nice and don't take your life or family for granted xxxxx

"I've sat in my bedroom for a month now. Lights off. Rocking back and forth and trying to drink myself to death. Looking at photos of my son. That's a long time to do that. Can't shit. No food. Barely any sleep. Just looking at photos of raff. My boy. He has kept me breathing. But then I weep all day thinking about him. I found an amazing doctor at cannes hospital who has a home in Fulham so his English is perfect. He has kept me talking all night. Sent me a message with the result. He is coming in his own car to get me. He said I should hang in there and that today is the start of a new chapter but I'm freaking. I'm scared. Guys I'm so scared. I just want to cuddle my son. Tell you now, this doctor is amazing. If I decide to do this then he needs a medal. But I must admit...im starting to panic and know I've got 5 hours to fuck off."

I'm being sectioned today. Thank you to everyone. But gents you need to know. My wife stole my son. Anyone who I speak to will know how close me and my boy are. Promise me if u never hear from me again that you will look into this. Father's for justice. I'm not attention seeking.. im so empty. Just thank you everyone. Even you crossed ‚öí. She took my son away cos I said I don't like her. I have a doctor coming after lunch and he is taking me to the asylum. I believe I will die from withdrawals. If you don't hear from me within a week it means I did. Please please look into the situation. Block show everyone photos of my son. Today is the most difficult day of my life. Its like going to prison again. I love you all. I should not have moved to France. Its actually shite. I saw the result yesterday. Brilliant. Made me smile. My boy is called Raff and he is 3 and he is west ham. Bye gents xx

Hold you head high lads and lasses. Difficult time or year. Let's be 'thete' for each other. Happy New Year! üíï

"A very Happy New Year to everybody on this thread , keep battling all & one ."

I know how you feel White Pony its a grind sometimes. I try and take it a day at a time but it's easier said than done

A few fireworks don’t change anything. Life is still pretty fucking terrible.

"This year is going to be a good year for us all. And never forget, no matter how dark the day, your sun WILL shine again. This thread is always here, use it if you need it, and we’ll all support one another. #WestHamFamily Take care, Phil"

Very true 67 I'm now 28 months sober and just had my third Christmas it's so nice to see my Grandsons and family all enjoying themselves and remembering what presents I received and who gave them to me shame I didn't give it up before I got liver disease. Happy New year to all on this thread WHO does have it's merits and this thread is one of them. X

Well done to all on this thread. Keep your peckers up.

"I recall block posting he had a relapse after 17 months but that is good going because you have to be relatively sober to start on the long road getting better and then to sustain it. I stopped drinking when I was working in Qatar about June 17 when I realized enjoying yourself is all about the company you are in. Think of the hangovers, comedowns and crap nights out they far outway the enjoyable nights. I did not realize I had mental healh issues until May 19 I had a final scan on the 22nd of this month. I have a dream cushy job the money is shite compared to what I could earn but the kids are here working so I can relax. My elbows are fucked so I could not load the long card board into printer and cutter fast enough so they put we outside looking after the baler. its like a nigh wathcmans job with my own little office no emails or phone calls and left alone to get on with it. There is another bloke who had his own buisiness with 20 HGVs and is now a shunter just moving lorrys in the yad he loves it as well"

Anyone heard from Marc?

Anyone heard from Marc?

"Block - thanks. Good to know he’s alright. Now he’s got through Saturdays episode, I’m sure he will start to make a proper go of things."

"Ha ha, nice one IH. Reminds of when I used to come in pissed when I lived with my mum and dad. I used to chat shit to the dog for ages before going to bed. I have depression, have done for twenty years. I love dogs, often through about getting one. Generally I’m pretty good at getting out snd about, Trouble is when I’m bad I feel pretty overwhelmed by any responsibilities, like fatherhood. I’m worried the dog might add to that feeling. But it could be really beneficial too. Fuck knows."

"Agree WHU, We have a cat, called Fluffy, a BRITISH Shorthair, I spend the day having full blown conversations with him. ""Conversations"" in the way your missus doesn't reply when you try to tell her how well we are doing this season but that we need a striker in , but the owners won't spend the money. That kind of way. But it keeps me happy :)"

"Don't know if it's been mentioned on this thread, and it's never really mentioned when discussed in magazines either when anxiety and depression is the subject, but I think in some cases having a pet, a cat or a dog helps? I've known a couple mates for 20 years plus with deep anxiety and depression and with both of them they seemed a lot better in their frames of mind after taking in a pet."

"Brief whatsapp chat, he's hanging in there but not great."

How’s Pentonville doing? Anyone heard/been in contact?

"Nice touch Goose Can I suggest MODS remove the bank details off a public forum- you know how many dodgy fuckers out there… bank details removed Keep your head up Pentonville, your West Ham family are here for you"

Fair play goose

"Mind altering/numbing substances are only a temporary release/escape and are often either mood enhancers so if your mood aint right when you take them it aint going to be right when you take them or on the come down Pents. Goose has been a legend and done something most of us couldn't do. You better fucking stick around and let him know tomorrow that he did the right thing by you mate, you promise that right now."

Stop being harsh. Be nice. U needed that.

Look up Marvin Herbert on YouTube. They want me. I'll tell them who was supplying Amy Winehouse. Guys. Goose has given my one last night. Thank you man. I now can relax for a bit. Maybe I'll watch mtv of Pete and Carl at my pub. I'm the ugly big nose cսnt. U should.

You will not get better until you stop or cut down your intake of mood altering substances and admit to yourself you have a problem that's the first step