Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[chim chim cha boo]

"Cheers chaps and you got what I was on about absolutely completely Manny. Every time a working class white (but of course not exclusively white) man decides to cash his chips a pink or blue haired university student with a trust fund or an Eton mess who has all the power and doesn't know a single person who has nobody to turn to when they are backed up against the wall, live or lived in a council property (or WISHES he lived in one) or even talks with an accent that's not exactly RP. The kind of cսnt who nods and looks like he's listening intently to what you are saying while REALLY just looking down his nose at you silently correcting your grammar, is a tiny bit happier. Even when life has torn the arse out of you and you can't see any way out of it but one, think of those absolute cunts, cunts who deliberately go out of their way to make your life worse than it already is, grit your teeth and never let them win. They hate that!"

[Crassus]

"Chim I can only agree with the lads, best wishes mate, to you and your brother"

[Pentonville]

I can only echo Manuel's words chim. Look after one another mate x

[Manuel]

"chim chim cha boo 6:12 Sun Jun 25 ''Anyway enough of me ranting. Fucking stick right in there, even if it's only to spite the cunts who wish you and your little problems would stop and disappear. Fight on'' Funny you should say that Chim, as in my darkest moments I might think of one or two smug cunts who may snigger at my demise, if it happened, not that I have any ''enemies'' as such, but there are some nasty, bitter cunts out there and I would hate to give them the satisfaction, you have struck a chord. The best of luck to your bro', he's obviously really been through the mill, he's lucky to have you, as you are him!"

[chim chim cha boo]

"Best of luck and love from me gentlemen and I mean that honestly and sincerely. My baby brother got taken from being held under section 2 (six weeks) to a section 3 (six months) on Friday, currently in Goodmayes after telling the police he had a gun and they had better shoot him six weeks ago. I have thought about you all on this thread many times but particularly in the time my brother's been away. I wouldn't keep a dog in the conditions they are holding him in and he's locked under 24 hour personal supervision. All his clothes keep going missing and they won't even let him have a razor to shave with. He's clumped 3 nurses already which horrified me when I was told that but now I know them better I probably would have held them down myself while he gave them a shoeing. The are like something Kafka would have struggled to come up with. I have to turn out every bag of clothes, fruit and toiletries while some African nurse (and they are ALL African, some borderline okay but most seem completely ignorant and communicate through a series of grunts that hardly pass for English). Okay, I get it, no nurse ever started his training dreaming of the day he got his nursing degree so he could work in an East London secure unit but if you hate the job and only care about covering your arse you should probably learn to fucking type and do another job. It has taken me, his ONLY kin six weeks to even have a five minute talk to a doctor. Disgraceful treatment of people who are seriously ill and I hand on heart believe that if I had spoken to a doctor on the first week he was there he'd be home by now. But no, despite how much I've tried and EVERY cսnt saying 'Yis,Yis Mr Chim. I will tell doctor ring you soon'. 'Yes nurse but this is the 20th time I've asked and you ALWAYS say the same thing'. I am THIS FUCKING CLOSE to invoking a safeguarding order on my brother which will really put them in the shit. So instead of me explaining his medication and circumstances leading to this current period of paranoid mania and him now being home in a safe environment he's begging me not to leave him because they've already pulled his eyes out on stalks to torture him. they keep two different set of notes about him using his real name in the morning and when the really evil night shift come in he's someone called Darren so they can kill him and hide the evidence. If you or me were absolutely convinced that tonight you were going to 100% be killed by these people and you had nowhere to run to maybe you'd clump one of them too? Anyway enough of me ranting. Fucking stick right in there, even if it's only to spite the cunts who wish you and your little problems would stop and disappear. Fight on. Remember, the only sure thing about life and luck is that IT WILL CHANGE. Please, please don't leave us, our little dysfunctional West Ham family on here have lost enough, far more than enough men already. Bless you all."

[Westham67]

Peckham 2:52 Sun Jun 4 You can self refer to IAPT. You are lucky (Depending how you feel ) to be alive after swallowing 30 olanzapine I had a shit time this weekend but I just thought about times that were far worse and got through them You have done mate I remember the WHO fund helping you so you can be strong mate you done it once you can do it again

[panamahat]

"Haven’t been on this thread since Ted left us ( respect to MPI , Charley et Al ) , glad Pents is alright . Peckham please hang in there , I know the story a bit myself , I’ve been facing addiction issues most of my life , have them down to low levels right now , there is a light in the tunnel . Happy Hammers at last 🙏🏻 ⚒️"

[Pentonville]

Any word from 'peckham'?

[Crassus]

"Pecks, we have had previous communication, hang in there son Penters speaks wisely and from experience, a good man, his advice is apt I'm travelling soon but accessible if it comes on top again, as are some really good lads on here, remember you are not alone and most importantly, it is always darkest before dawn - dig in mate and speak - please"

[paul6565]

"Good Luck EH and hope all is going well. Best wishes to all who are fighting each and every day.. Never give up, the tide will turn no matter how strong it is.. Lets hope we all get a big lift on Weds night. COYI !!"

[paul6565]

"Thanks Luke, all up to date."

[paul6565]

Thanks Charley much appreciated.

[paul6565]

Thanks Charley much appreciated.

[Tomshardware]

"Peckham, sorry to hear about your mate. Keep talking and focus on some positive reasons to still be here. Try to go somewhere with big open green space, it can help to think and get out of 4 walls. Samaritans are always there as well if you need something non judgemental to talk to."

[Pentonville]

"Peckham These are all huge cries for help and ur feeling like nobody is listening and I get that. I've been there. You need to hold yourself together tonight, Monday everything opens and someone on here can ring on your behalf and get someone to you. Where are you this evening. I hope you are gonna be strong and OK mate.. have you got Defjams number still. Give him a bell?"

[Westham67]

Peckham have you been referred to IAPT ? Trains don't kill outright unless they are 90mph + it's a nasty death otherwise EH good luck. Look at the stay like a time to rest up a bit and do some reading

[Peckham]

"The mental health care system is broken. Last Wednesday I called West London mental crisis line at 4am, crying eyes out, suffering from psychosis wanting to kill someone who robbed me. They said see local GP and get referred back to mental health care team. I saw GP. Friday I buried my best civilian mate, I am ex army. After funeral i gave up. Went Streatham Common BR near Crematorium. Left my passport to one side and walked up tracks. The Police saved me and then my old Colonel from Battalion. Went hospital 8 hour wait and fuck so grateful not sectioned for 4th time in my life. Got prescribed Diazapam and told to return for another dose the next day. i did this. I am fighting to get into hospital called Crisis recovery.. I just want to join my mother and mates upstairs. I am a selfish cսnt. Overdosed about 30 olanzapine this Wednesday gone. Woke up today. With ambulance crew and police again. It seems to get treatment get your brain fixed, not commit suicide, the only was is to be full on psychotic or actually bleeding from self harm.. If not for a charity called Always a Rifleman I would be dead right now. I am going either, grave, mental hospital or prison simply because I cant get an early intervention and know i am unwell and unstable and missing my dead mate so fucking much x COYIS"

[charleyfarley]

Good Luck EH all rooting for you. If anything we can help with give us a shout

[Pentonville]

Echo all the below eswing

[eswing hammer]

Thanks lads !

[Mike Oxsaw]

"Can I add my best wishes on your treatment to the bunch, EW? You're correct that this thread does seem useful - the examples of posters returning from dark places most of cannot even begin to comprehend offers some support to that claim, and long may it continue."

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

eswing hammer 1:39 Fri Jun 2 Re: Anxiety/depression Best wishes and positive thoughts for your treatment ahead. If you need/want to share during that's what this thread is for.

[eswing hammer]

"Thanks all, my boy is in his thirties now he should be fine ,he will be with Charlie’s boats lot and my own mates from the wentworth !"

[one iron]

"EH, How olds your boy. if he needs any help tell him to come to me and the lads,dont worry."

[Crassus]

Chin up EH and all the best