Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[Jim79]

"That is a heart felt read Peckham and glad you came through it make and keep fighting the negative thoughts, chin up mate. Don't worry about the WHOFund, cases like yours are exactly what it was meant for. God knows we'd all rather it was used like it was for you and hopefully give you the leg up you needed to get better than have to send wreaths to fellow WHOers funerals like we have recently. So with that id urge anyone feeling bad to reach out, if nobody else then I'll happily throw my hat in the ring as a sympathetic ear and if needs be use the WHOFund if you aren't able to pay for the help you need, that's what its there for. And regarding Vexed, if anyone took the time to read Peckham's full post you'd see that his comment was in no way whatsoever in poor taste or out of order. It was actually quite nice and caring."

[Sydney_Iron]

"If the Samaritans are engaged, nice to know you can WhoMail Vexed.......... *makes note to self."

[Darlo Debs]

"On a similar theme has anyone had any weird pain manifest itself as a result of stress or anxiety. Ended up.in a&e last night. Thought i.was having a heart attack, tight pain across left side of chest an left arm. Bloody scary. All bloods and ECG came back.normal so assume it might be stress related."

[Block]

"It's mad, Since Friday i've been inundated with anxious feelings and negative self talk, completely out of no where. That feeling in the pit of your stomach is absolutely awful."

[overbyyer]

Fair enough The nuanced message within a message is above my pay scale. Crack on.

[Buster]

"Vexed is the biggest cսnt on here but it's clear he wasn't having a pop, so let's just move on."

[dolph]

Did you read Peckham's post? He called himself it. Was pretty much a specific invite for Vexed. Could be argued Vexed wouldve been a bigger cսnt to ignore it

[Block]

"Yeah, calling Peckham who's served in the army a snowflake cսnt is really being sympathetic, Dolph son."

[dolph]

People digging Vexed out may have missed the sentimental notion of today's put down. Was more of a hug than a slap.

[andyd12345]

"Peckham 1:31 Mon Jan 20 Re: Anxiety/depression That’s a tough read Peckham. I know Gidea Park Station well, my family home is a short walk from there so would the train every morning. Jumpers are very common unfortunately, as you say there are fast trains running through very often. I’m glad you didn’t go through with it. Don’t feel guilt about the fund, and don’t put yourself under any pressure to pay it back. People didn’t contribute to get it back, they contributed because they wanted to help someone in need. When your back on your feet, chuck a score in the fund and hopefully it will help the next person. Take care, and know there are lots of people here that will always talk to you if you ever find yourself in a dark place."

[Block]

Vexed 12:42 Mon Jan 20 Good to see you're still an ignorant cսnt.

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"Yarmouth 1:05 Mon Jan 20 Re: Anxiety/depression I make you right East Anglian Kiss me Quick hat son. Drink (to get drunk) has always been a mood enhancer, not a mood changer, if you have depression or anxiety it may numb a few hours or it might just bring on a more acute manifestation of your symptoms. that's closely followed by the effects of a hangover, which take a bigger toll on an older body."

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"overbyyer 1:27 Mon Jan 20 Re: Anxiety/depression Vexed and Peckham are communicating. Not in a way we would or a way that makes us feel comfortable but they have developed it and it works for them. What he wrote was, in the context of their comms, rather touching and nice."

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"overbyyer 1:27 Mon Jan 20 Re: Anxiety/depression Vexed and Peckham are communicating. Not in a way we would or a way that makes us feel comfortable but they have developed it and it works for them. What he wrote was, in the context of their comms, rather touching and nice."

[Bungo]

Peckham 1:31 Mon Jan 20 That's one hell of a read. Take care.

[Bungo]

Just a thought: No finger pointing but this is a serious thread that may be able to offer some genuine help. It would be useful if we kept any of the standard WHO sqabbling elsewhere?

[overbyyer]

"Vexed wrote... Re: Anxiety/depression Yes Peckham, you are, but you're our tragic boring weird snowflake cսnt now and theres nothing we can do about that. What are you getting out of this kind of post that makes it worthwhile for you?"

[Vexed]

"Yes Peckham, you are, but you're our tragic boring weird snowflake cսnt now and theres nothing we can do about that."

[Buster]

"Yarmouth 1:05 Mon Jan 20 I went through 2-3 years of horrendous anxiety, all down to the booze. Piled on four stone and although I wasn't depressed, I'd feel really low knowing I couldn't do the things I used to in terms of fitness. Used to run marathons, could cycle 100 miles in just over 4 hours but it all went out of the window because of the drink and rather than do something about it, I'd just think 'fuck it' and keep drinking. The anxiety stopped a year or so ago and I came off the meds, but it didn't stop me drinking 8-10 pints of Stella a day. Finally trying to sort my shit out, already lost a stone this month alone through no booze and shit loads of exercise and feel as good as I have done for years. You really can't underestimate what regular exercise and a clear head can do for your mental state."

[Peckham]

"I have been on Epilim Chrono, Levomepromazine, Clonazepam, Olanzapine, and finally Paroxetine ( feels like an E some mornings had to stop taking ). Man up dont¬¥t be a cսnt was what I would think when serving in the Army. Then first year out of the Army 2002 experienced and well went mental. Red mist. Followed by depression and being sectioned. Fuck nick - to be sectioned is one fucking horrible experience. I have done both, nick and being sectioned. I would rather a 6 month sentence for no reason than to ever be sectioned again. It was that bad. So man up etc etc etc. After experiencing and losing things special in my life and to one year carrying a gun with no fear ever - to being a civvy and having panic attacks and anxiety , to be beyond the state of depression you can no longer communicate to those you love you are depressed. I feel one massive fucking burden on people , especially Defjam. Long story short - as I have posed before. Not sure if anyone knows Gidea Park train station well , for 10 years in Madrid once a year I would visit my old dear there. There is a fast train that goes from Romford fast all the way to Liverpool Street. Like a bullet. They fly by. I convinced myself it was the quickest way to go as there was no chance of disability and failure as they go so fast. Was gonna jump head first into it. Saw loads of samaritans posters around station I found a coincidence or even sign. Left passport on floor and a letter of apologies to the train driver and passengers being considerate. Ended up whomailing Defjam. I am alive the rest is history. Gavros did not just drop down dead, he was dying slowly since when he helped me and you lot with the fund. I have watts app messages from him proving his state of mind. I am gutted. I cried about Gavros , not when read here, but at church when I lit a candle for him ( I light candles at church for family and dead friends , it gave me a Sunday routine in Madrid for years ). The world can watch and the press can transmit images of jihadist cunts beheading, like animals , decent people , yet only until recent Depression in men has been taboo. Of course I am not proud of being sectioned , I was in no danger to others , only myself and well red mist with old bill in Spain hence nicked there for months and sectioned in Madrid as well. The last time I saw my Mum with all her marbles was when the WHOFUND paid it for me to come home. Truth be known, In Spain its a bit more difficult to get social or sick pay unless worked certain years and paid into tax system. But the Spanish love black money, all my clients paid cash and I never paid tax. Gave all clients the option if want to be taxed etc.....of course all said fuck that , off the books. Hence I was unwell , despite having a small war pension, a month off work because of a breakdown I could not support myself there when had the black dog. I could not hang myself , I am shit with knots and DIY , I would fuck it up and look like Mr Bean. My father hung himself so I always envisaged I would go like this. The tube trains do not run as fast anymore due to jumpers I imagine. I am scared of big heights and you still have those seconds when jumping before smashing to pieces. I have collated 1000 odd pills over the years, but would they kill me. So being a Solider , I have no fear of guns and ammunition and cant think of a quicker and better way to go in terms of suicide, than a bullet to the temple or mouth. I was sat in a place called Galicia , farm in the middle of nowhere. friends away. Sat there with a Browning 9mm, I have no bloody reason to lie. Night and day cried for how I had felt I had fucked my life up and my Mums and obviously my old man was not happy the way he went says it all. I just like Catholics hold their rosemary beads , I was running 2 to 3 bullets , through my hands , juggling, feeling them. I was not crying out of fear, but loneliness it had come to this. ‚Ǩ1000 approx to spend a week with a browning , bullets and seclusion. But I got through it. I was not drunk, high or anything. I contacted WHO and Defjam again. ALSO THANKS TO FLYING V. Make no mistake - The strongest drug for a human being is another human. Some days when dark and black dog , WHO is my drug others its comedy but dark comedy. Its been 16 years of these meds and acute depression even when fucking top birds and should be on top of the world. Jan 31st is the biggest day in my life for my mental health , it has taken 12 months in London to get an appointment with a specialist to review my medicine and a Doctor to change or amend , 12 months 2 trips to a and e , fighting not to be sectioned again, fighting not to lose it with people as in red mist . Feeling worthless , DWP UC ‚Ǩ40 a month is my award , ‚Ǩ10 a week the government values my life. But in answer to original OP , poster , yes there is light , there is a way through the darkness. Best thing is not to hide how you feel , you have opened up and that is the first step to getting better. The meds I have are overkill hence can not wait for the review, but despite pessimism to the whole pharmaceutical industry as a whole, there is no doubt the anti depressant I take Paroxetine gives me a bounce and I am sure if I was more disciplined with meds , exercised more. Took when supposed too, I have no doubt I would be feeling better. The thing is patience , the pills although you do not want to take for life. They do not work overnight and all say make you feel worse before better. So you have to stick it out. Nature is my drug now for depression. also Art. But mainly fcuk off amazing trees, landscapes and seeing the sunrise and sunset. The head of TILS https://www.veteransservicelse.nhs.uk/ Most probably the best mental health carers in the country only for vets but just recently invested by government and NHS due to suicide rates in the Army and epidemic of PTSD, the main man there , he begged me to get running , walking or boxing, to reduce meds and take on one of those hobbies. I¬¥m thinking about it. To all those who donated 400 to visit my Mum and Niece , I am sorry , I am living in an Army Hostal - Veterans Aid - for homeless vets in East London, I want to work but I am looking after my Mum in the days as the subcontracted NHS homecare team were terrible. Despite speaking Spanish , Cambridge TEFL qualifications , working at Real Madrid, Spanish Kings body guard and special forces a good TEFL CV , in London every private academy wants someone with a degree. Hence I am struggling for what to do. But as posters leave us tragically the WHOFUND must remain in legacy to Gavros so I know and do not feel so much guilt now that I haven¬¥t paid it back, but its not going anywhere the fund, I will pay it back one day this year. Things have to get better. COYIS. YES VEXED I AM TRAGIC SNOWFLAKE BORING cսnt. Thanks"

[hammerintheorient]

"As a 55-year-old, I couldn't agree more with your re: the booze, Yarmouth. Well said."

[Yarmouth]

There's a book by Tim Grayburn called 'Boys don't cry'. Its a brilliant read about one blokes journey through it. I'd recommend anyone going through depression and/or anxiety to read it.

[Yarmouth]

"In my experience, drink has a major effect on depression/anxiety, sadly, especially as you get older. I never believed people when they said alcohol is a depressant, for me it was always a buzz and then feel like shit in the morning but never made me fed up. Now at 62? The next morning has a major effect on my mood and certainly opens the doors that let negative emotions flow through. For what its worth, don't let alcohol take the depression/anxiety away because it really is a very short term fix with bad after effects. Go see the doctor and acknowledge that somethings wrong that needs professional help. Not preaching here lads, just trying to pass on a little experience to help others."

[Eerie Descent]

Just send them a picture of Justin P's cock.

[Vexed]

"Any of you feeling down and that, before you do anything drastic WHOmail me and I'll give you a pep talk, you worthless cunts."