Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[cup of tea]

Rarely post but just thought I would share that as a fellow anxiety and depression sufferer I have had my medication changed for the first time in 3 years due to worsening symptoms the last few months.

Decided to take early retirement at 51 due to poor health and do just 2 days consultancy at home. I think the lack of office human interaction possibly made symptoms worse alongside my Mothers ill health (she is 79)

I am now on the top dose of Citalopram 40mg, Propanalol 80mg and Mirtazapine 15mg which have beem great for sleeping. The one bad side affect of Mirtazapine is the constant hunger even after eating. Waking up at 2-3am wanting a sandwich or crisps isn't great and a slippery slope to becoming a fat cսnt.

Always find this time of year shit anyway. 

Good luck and best wishes to those going through similar
 

[Mike Oxsaw]

The seemingly  endless flaguation of self  is .... extravagant.



 

2 regular posters from this forum killed themselves 

Yes, two regular posters from one of the most aggressive, toxic, abusive and poorly moderated football forums on the internet killed themselves. What does that tell you?

Well, YOU tell me that you have no respect for the sanctity of this thread.

Don't bother replying, this is not a thread for sparing, arguing or self aggrandisement. Start another thread if you wish to debate the meta-level aspects regarding what this thread offers.

[Come On You Irons]

The seemingly  endless flaguation of self  is .... extravagant.


 

2 regular posters from this forum killed themselves 

Yes, two regular posters from one of the most aggressive, toxic, abusive and poorly moderated football forums on the internet killed themselves. What does that tell you?

[Westham67]

The seemingly  endless flaguation of self  is .... extravagant.

 

2 regular posters from this forum killed themselves 

[Monsieur merde de cheval]

The seemingly  endless flaguation of self  is .... extravagant.
 

[Westham67]

Good to see you back, side effect. 

[side effect]

Well im just taking Amitriptyline when I feel like it and prefibin.  Have not taken pregabalin for over 2 years now and Codiene 30/500 and butrans patch just over a year.
Quite fit at 62 and could be off all by 63.
Just had a trip to Aberdeen migrating over to Inverness taking the seated sleeper both ways as my son wants to buy up there.
I managed to get 7 sleeping pills and 7 diazepam to relax me over the week and had an enjoyable time going to different areas by train each day. Highlight was watching 3 typhoons take off at Leuchars.

Been off a while due to being logged out and so many times trying to log back in until I tried again today. 

Hope your all doing well.

[Tomshardware]

Agree with some of that but not all of it.  Depression is about brain chemistry and sometimes it can consume a person, there is no snapping out of it.   If it was that easy then you wouldn't have so many suicides. 

[Big head]

After doing a lot of resetting the way I think, I've come to the conclusion you HAVE choice as to whether you feel depressed or not. 

Every single evening, for 10 minutes I over and over say in my head "I choose to be happy" and it has had a profound effect on my mental wellbeing.

I choose to not let things get to me, worry about what you can control and just be happy.

When you get depressed, you end up playing a victim, I certainly did. Blamed everyone and everything. It gets addictive too as you seek sympathy from others. in reality you can choose to feel how you feel.

[Tomshardware]

Life only seems to make sense when I'm near woodland and birdsong.

Probably a far too simplistic answer, but is it possible for you to take on a role that offers such an environment?

Gardener would be an obvious choice, but not sure how well that pays. I'd throw in groundsman or park-keeper but I'm not sure councils employ such people any more.

If you need a more stable, paying role, how about work in a garden centre.

I do (I think) understand where you're coming from - when I'm in Thailand, the birdsong around the village is really quite relaxing, the all-night frogs & crickets less so (but I wish they'd glue the beaks of the free-range cockerels closed at sunset and get the local elephant to shut the fuck up...sometimes) .

Thanks Oxsaw, I do actually work as a gardener.  Your backdrop of sounds in Thailand is interesting.  

[Mike Oxsaw]

Life only seems to make sense when I'm near woodland and birdsong.

Probably a far too simplistic answer, but is it possible for you to take on a role that offers such an environment?

Gardener would be an obvious choice, but not sure how well that pays. I'd throw in groundsman or park-keeper but I'm not sure councils employ such people any more.

If you need a more stable, paying role, how about work in a garden centre.

I do (I think) understand where you're coming from - when I'm in Thailand, the birdsong around the village is really quite relaxing, the all-night frogs & crickets less so (but I wish they'd glue the beaks of the free-range cockerels closed at sunset and get the local elephant to shut the fuck up...sometimes) .

[Tomshardware]

Life only seems to make sense when I'm near woodland and birdsong.

[Pentonville]

May I request that anyone who knows Gonzo on hammers chat message him and tell him that he is a top bloke. ASAP

[Peckham]

I made this when off my nut on magic mushrooms 

[Peckham]

Dear Major Hudson and all,

I wrote to HQ and asked for your address.

I wanted to send you flowers to say thanks for helping me with money.

I used to spend all my money on hedonism - things like sex, hotels, drugs and Carlton Cole ( West Ham ), also fast cars.

When MUM was alive I bought her flowers every single day of my life wherever I was in the world. This is no lie, I learned Latin via flowers and a good school.

I used to be blessed. Now I am in so much pain I wish to die.

Anyway, thank you for the loan for court and trying to stop my imminent eviction.

Yours sincerely,

Dave Knight 25029645

Clean from drugs for six weeks now. Apart from the night I got sexually abused. They gave me ketamine instead of cocaine. That is why they did what they did. I only jest in my silly films about drugs. My dream if not death is to help drug addicts and the mentally challenged..

CC WEST HAM ONLINE BEST FORUM FOR CUNTS EVER.
CC Right Hon Ben Coleman LABOUR PARTY who I voted for.
CC RBL
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CC Mr Broderick - council HanF adult care
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CC Sue at Mail my favourite journalist

[Pentonville]

Incarnation? That sounds dodgy lol.  I was hairyspotter for a.month but i made such an Impact lol. Apart from being retarded and cool as fuxk I have charisma
 

[panamahat]

Well I’m delighted to report Penters is very much alive & in fine fettle & appreciates all the love & support he has received on here into his present incarnation from as far back as the Spotter years .
long may it last
Keep the faith Peckham .

[Mike Oxsaw]

Hello ladies and gents. Loooooong story. Let's get spurs out the way and ill tell all. Its been madness. As always. Wish u all love and health 

Well! Spring, sprang & sprong!

Good to see you posting.

[Pentonville]

Hello ladies and gents. Loooooong story. Let's get spurs out the way and ill tell all. Its been madness. As always. Wish u all love and health 

[panamahat]

It’s been very quiet on here it seems of recent , me I’m personally trying to keep my addictions at reasonable levels , making sure I have scripts on 3 continents for my late night Anxiety & Insomnia so I can function as normally as possible ( enjoying life like I’m a 40 year old ) .
I have  not heard from Penters for a few months just hope / pray he’s somewhere safe .
Big Shout out to anyone going through IT

[chim chim cha boo]

Hello chaps,  I  hope that you are all okay, and those that aren't okay are still clinging on to this big chunk of rock hurtling through space?

We're (mainly) out of those miserable slate-grey skies and I am hoping you're getting at least 10 minutes a day with the sun on your face.

Just checking in really to wish sincerely that you are okay and if you are not, using this forum as a completely non judgemental place to get some of this shit off of your shoulders and maybe talk to people, your/my peers who are in the same kind of place, and let's face it, you only have to watch the news to see it's just one fucking thing after another.

As Churchill famously said, 'when you are going through hell, keep going'!

Spring's here so give yourself a little pat on the back for making it through another shitty winter. I honestly wish you all the best. We're all West Ham and we're all in this together. 

[chim chim cha boo]

Big head, that's fucking rough and I wish you and your missus all good things in the future.

Bill, yes okay there are always going to be people you feel are worse off than yourself but that in no way negates the pain YOU feel inside. It's not a race to the bottom after all. You have carried your loss now for more years than I care to remember. Your missus wouldn't like to see you struggle - in her heart of hearts she'd only want the best for you. It's a mistake to pine away to nothing because you are a loyal and loving bloke.

I'm pretty sure she'd tell you to grab at life as we've got so little time on this Earth. If you are a believer you'll have plenty of time on the other side to be together anyway so why not use the time you have on this plane in the pursuit of happiness?

Whatever, bless every one of you struggling to make sense of it all. Good luck x

[Billy Blagg]

Two miscarriages is rough. I feel for you. That's the trouble with these things. You have problems yourself and you try and resolve or at least understand and work as well as you can and then you read something like that and you think 'Quit moaning there are people a lot worse off'. I wish you well.

[Big head]

Good to see this thread still going well.

Had a rough year, 2 miscarriages. 

But we keep going. Failure is not an option. 

[Pub Bigot]

Blagg, talk to Jessica Shepherd. She won’t officially diagnose you but a letter from her gets you a fast track to the proper diagnosis that she says you’re going to get and she’s never wrong.

Tell me more Gank. I assume you have some experiencing with this bird for one reason or another? I'm not being facetious either, genuinely curious.