Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[Irish Hammer]

"Pentonville “It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Never forget you're a fucking warrior, a warrior who has been places where most souls would stumble, and fade. Your light is still there, and your Sun will Shine again, I promise you that. Take care and keep your faith, in your son, in yourself, in anything that you can hold tight. It'll all be ok, it really will. You inspire me. Respect, Phil."

[panamahat]

"Glad to hear you’re over the worst of it Penters , the 80’s was a bit of a blur personally so can somewhat relate to your story ,keep it up mate !"

[Crassus]

"Penters Good man, you know how to contact me if you need to Beyond, I'll leave you in peace Good luck mate"

[madeeasy]

"Pents, good to hear from you mate. Keep your head down mate and on the straight and narrow. for you to get 3 days is pretty amazing tbh all things considered. So enjoy mate ⚒️ 4:06 Mon Jan 24 WHO gold, take a bow"

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"“The MRI showed nothing serious apparently to anywhere on my body but my liver was enlarged and I had a stool the size of a planet blocking me up.” Always knew you was full of shit, Pentonville!"

[goose]

"Good to hear from you Pentonville, and good to hear you sounding better. Everyone on here is with you and hoping you continue improving."

[Pentonville]

"Oh and I speak to the man who saved my life, the psychiatrist every other day on zoom when he is in Cannes and then will visit once a week when he is in Fulham"

[Pentonville]

"Good afternoon gents. I wanted to message on here to update everyone. Firstly I want to thank everyone for their messages and care. I have no recollection of anything from December 4th until January 4th. Any conversations I had are not in my head. I know goose I think sent me 70 quid and I know what I was saying as I have read posts on here. I was helped by a very kind doctor who it seems saved my life. My wife has left me and actually it turns out, sneaked him out of the country around 20th December without my knowledge although I think I was aware at the time, I really do not know. What saved me was my mother contacting this doctor who tricked me into leaving the apartment and got me to meet him on the premise of a drink when in fact I was put into hospital and immediately put on god knows what and given an MRI as my stomach had serious bloating and lumps and I was constipated for 3 weeks. The MRI showed nothing serious apparently to anywhere on my body but my liver was enlarged and I had a stool the size of a planet blocking me up. That was dealt with and then I was taken to a sort of psychiatric hospital and signed apparently to stay for 14 days to deal with withdrawals only. Not to discuss my mindset. I was put into what seemed to be an induced coma. I actually 'escaped' 10 days I think ago, maybe a bit longer and flew back to england. I spoke to some people on here but can't recall who. I was still very very drugged up. Christ knows how i got on the plane.anwyay I got a text from my french neighbour saying the police had smashed my door down and were looking for me. I immediately got a flight back first thing in morning and got uber back to the institute. Turns out they thought I had gone home to die. I hadn't. I was looking for my son. Anyway I finished the treatment for withdrawals. I flew back to UK last Thursday. As I said I can't remember much. I'm clean and my last health check showed no real long lasting damage except I haven't had my arteries inside my heart looked at yet cos they can't really but all tests they can do shows I'm relatively ok considering. The fact I woke up with no wife and son in January and the last thing I remember Is being at a Xmas village on December 2nd or 3rd is terrifying. I've spoken to my wife who has filled me in on bits but i had to stop her. It's horrific the state I was in She has been amazing since and whilst it's been made clear she is done with me with no doubt, she has said I can see my son 3 days a week. Thursday morning to Sunday morning. That keeps me alive.if she had said no I would not be here right now. He is my world. I won't be back on for a couple of days as this has been hard enough to write and I want to forget it now and continue to get stronger. I'm going to need a job from Sunday lunchtime to Wednesday nights. Any ideas? Also if anyone knows of a room to rent, whether it be Surrey Essex or Hampshire or Kent I'd be interested. I'm not nuts. I'm not a liability. I am just extremely sad and fragile but a bit of good fortune and seeing my son on Thursday and cuddling him and smelling him will start me on the next stage which is to like myself again. I find it hard at moment as I lost everything so quickly. But I am not suicidal I need to be around for Rafferty. I miss him and love him so much Thank you all again. I must prepare myself for my 3days with raff(supervised with my mother) so need to forget the past for a few days.but I'll come back on Sunday once he has gone. Thanks again"

[Sniper]

"67 Pleased to hear there’s some more to help you, I hope it goes well with the psychologist"

[Mike Oxsaw]

"Moncurs Putting Iron 6:47 Fri Jan 21 That's good news, even if it is second or third hand. Best of luck to all of those suffering; with a bit of luck...OK, a LOT of luck, now covid appears on the run you can all get the help you need."

[Westham67]

"block, white pony, and sniper. i dropped white pony a whomail just to let him know he is not suffering alone I went to Queen's hospital this afternoon to have a lumbar puncture for precautionary measures. My neurologist, who I have known for over 6 years and books all the appointments for me, came to say hello and said the scan I had 22/12 was no change of the ones from 2016 some memory loss. of that period in hospital. He said you have been through so much and so depressed that all the inattentive behavior and lack of concentration is psychological and I have sessions booked with a psycholgist"

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

"Block is doing ok, He's focussed on his family and work much more, so not logged on recently and unlikely to be able to do so anytime soon. Pleased that others are asking after him though ;-)"

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

⚒️ 3:10 Fri Jan 21 Good point not this year.

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Anyone heard from Block?

[Leavemyarcelona]

Good as one can be

[Leonard Hatred]

Alright.

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

So. How is everyone today?

[Moncurs Putting Iron]

So. How is everyone today?

[Westham67]

I agree he should come back to the UK and get some stability in his life

[madeeasy]

"Was Pents the one that moved to france as his mrs was there and had a little one and then his mrs made shit up about him and tried to alienate him from his friends etc, remember someone posting about it on here a year or two back? If so he needs to get back to the uk, not forget his boy, but leave it if his mrs is being a nightmare and get himself straight and then fight when he is strong enough. Hope he is ok"

[Westham67]

I don't know how French law with being sectioned. If it's like it is here then he won't be getting out until the doctor or a psychiatrist approves it if he is functioning normally and not suicidal. He will need support when he comes out from his friends and family

[madeeasy]

"Block, Peroni How is Pents, do we know if the doc got him to the straightner all ok? Thoughts are with him and his boy."

[Westham67]

*What MPI posted

[Westham67]

What MPI I know what charlie does to your mind and makes you into something you are not. I am ashamed of myself for all of the people who I ripped off I was an animal and just need gear. Clucking when it runs out at 4 am and all brainstorming where you can get more. Then on the comedown not sleeping beating yourself thinking what did I do what did I say when I was out of it .Part of recovery is forgiving yourself and moving on and your close friends and family know it was the drugs that turned you into that person

[Billy Blagg]

"Moncurs Putting Iron 1:27 Fri Jan 7 WHU(Exeter) 8:05 Tue Dec 21 I agree. I have three cats and one is asleep on my lap as I write this. On days I didn’t want to get up and there seemed no point in anything after Gail died, they would be on the bed waiting when I woke up, then wanting food. I’d get up to feed them and then I was in the day. The days weren’t always great but they were there. They are a link to her too. I hated cats and was allergic to them when we first got together. She got rid of the cats she had to be with me. I never thanked her for that – I should have as I can’t be without these three here now. And, yea, I talk to them. Why not? They don’t disagree with anything I say."