Anxiety/depression

[Tomshardware]

"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

[Mike Oxsaw]

"Pentonville 4:59 Sat Jan 29 Pardon butting in on this but when I separated from my children's mother, they were 6 years, 2 years & 3 months old (the children, not the mother). She denied me access for 3 years from that moment on and tried to write me (and all my family) out of their lives. When I eventually was granted access again, it took less than 10-15 minutes for the 2 elder ones to start recalling my time with them before the separation - the youngest accepted me because her sisters did and within a month, I was ""Dad"" again, despite their mother insisting they only use that title for her new husband. In short - he won't forget you."

[Westham67]

Younger they were 1 year and 2 and half years when I went to Taiwan

[Westham67]

Yes I was always going for months on end and coming back and seeing my kids

[Pentonville]

Genuine question 67 - so u reckon I should just say I can't see him for a few months and go back to my home to France and get on my feet again? Do u think that he will remember me (he is 3) Genuine question

[Westham67]

"Marc. You are trying to do everything at one time. Get yourself a job a stabilize first and then think of other things your son will still be there for 6 months or so. Thanks, Syders. I am classing today as day one. Where in the past has gone but I still suffering the results of it but I need to push on and get Mrs's settlement visa maybe in 6 months she is here. I have lots of doctors and council housing people on my side when I go for government support"

[Mike Oxsaw]

"Get it out there. Can I say ""It's better out than in"" without having a Frankie Howerd moment? No shame in sharing your shit; you never know who might throw a useful idea your way. Often feels it's you against the world when families drift apart - I felt the same at times when I couldn't see my three. You may have to push the NHS to get an earlier appointment, which can be frustrating in itself, but it may give you a focal point for a few days. You're also young enough to consider a career change, so that might be something else to look into."

[Pentonville]

Anyway ignore that. I'm ranting and I have nobody to rant to. I'm angry and pissed off but yeah sober dont worry.

[Pentonville]

"I've signed up for therapy on NHS but it takes 28 fucking days to review my case. Doctor who was helping me in cannes has fucking bad covid so can't talk to him at moment. Im homeless jobless and only here cos my son is. I have to go back to France as its where I have a home but then I can't see raff. I'm fucked royally. What am.i supposed to do. Totally lost. Alive but lost or dead and having nice things said about you. I mean Jesus. Obvs if I was gonna be dead nyself it would have happened in December but now its mentally dead. I put out a Facebook begging for work in France. Had over 100 comments. 60 were telling me to keep chin up 15 were women saying I should respect myself for giving up good years of my life to stay at home with son and other 25 were agencies and job offers. Not one thing came to anything. All bollox. Virtue signalling. All trying to mine my cv for Contacts for themselves (usual agency practice in quiet times) So basically this week is it. If I can't find a home or a job. Job would be better. I'm going back to France next weekend. And prob won't see my son for a while which is fucking shit. By the way, father's for justice charge 200.00 for 60min phone call and 3k for them to deal with ur case. I thought they were a fucking charity. I can't work in music industry again here cos I was a whistle-blower and then I thought well I know booze and I can hold a chat so I applied for a job at wetherspoons Gatwick. Literally the lowest of of low but shows I'm not to proud. They told me they can't employ me unless I work a Thursday or Friday or Saturday which are the days I can have raff. So I said I can't but I will do all day and all night Sunday to Wednesday and I meant all day and all night till 6am no worries. She said "" we are a pub so we are quiet on those days"" babe ur an airport. What the fuck are u saying. People fly out on all days. I would be in pub at Heathrow or Gatwick at 6am having a beer before first flight and it was mobbed on a Monday or a Sunday or a Friday. It's my age. I'm 44. Washed up. Gave my family everything and I've been betrayed. Victim of a massive heist."

[Sydney_Iron]

"Sorry to hear this 67, Feel like words are worthless sometime but for what its worth, just take it one day at a time, see the light through the tunnel, even take a step back and look at things and what your thinking from the third person perspective even though its you, if that make sense. Just hang in there and believe it will all come good again, you’re a decent fella from meeting you a few times, sure many think the same, don’t slip backwards, go forwards. All the very best mate."

[Westham67]

"I got a response from White Pony and both of us are having a struggle. I was thinking when I was at work on Thursday how fragile I must be if I had suicidal thoughts about a rental deal going south. I called my GP and I get counseling as well, I withdrew my NR applications and deleted my LinkedIn profile. I cannot handle stress antmore"

[Sniper]

"Really pleased to hear all that Pents, great to hear things are working out better for you"

[Westham67]

"Well done Pentonville going to send you a WHO mail buts it is on the blink Try and stay out of the boozer and alcohol that the biggest trigger for other things spareroom.com for a room. CV library for part-time work Thanks, Sniper I am not sure they can unravel me now. I n a letter I have from the clinical psychologist it says I have a mood disorder and low mood which means I am permanently depressed. Getting this 1 bedroom place has taken from the 4th of January 4th to yesterday to move in 28th the stress put me into a very dark place on Monday night I could not go to work yesteday"

[Fortunes Hiding]

Love the support and help here for a fellow hammer. IRONS

[wanstead_hammer]

"Yeh, good to hear you’re on the mend Pentonville and the fog’s clearing. Focus on your saucepan and I’m sure everything else will fall into place. All the best."

[wanstead_hammer]

"Yeh, good to hear you’re on the mend Pentonville and the fog’s clearing. Focus on your saucepan and I’m sure everything else will fall into place. All the best."

[Pentonville]

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[Tomshardware]

"Good to hear from you Pents, you should write a book one day. Keep going, things are on the up for you."

[FrancoisVanDerElst]

"Glad t hear things are moving forward Pentonville Can’t underestimate how much help a good doctor can be Be patient , and you will get back to where you need to be Good luck"

[Irish Hammer]

"Pentonville “It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Never forget you're a fucking warrior, a warrior who has been places where most souls would stumble, and fade. Your light is still there, and your Sun will Shine again, I promise you that. Take care and keep your faith, in your son, in yourself, in anything that you can hold tight. It'll all be ok, it really will. You inspire me. Respect, Phil."

[panamahat]

"Glad to hear you’re over the worst of it Penters , the 80’s was a bit of a blur personally so can somewhat relate to your story ,keep it up mate !"

[Crassus]

"Penters Good man, you know how to contact me if you need to Beyond, I'll leave you in peace Good luck mate"

[madeeasy]

"Pents, good to hear from you mate. Keep your head down mate and on the straight and narrow. for you to get 3 days is pretty amazing tbh all things considered. So enjoy mate ⚒️ 4:06 Mon Jan 24 WHO gold, take a bow"

[⚒️]

"“The MRI showed nothing serious apparently to anywhere on my body but my liver was enlarged and I had a stool the size of a planet blocking me up.” Always knew you was full of shit, Pentonville!"

[goose]

"Good to hear from you Pentonville, and good to hear you sounding better. Everyone on here is with you and hoping you continue improving."

[Pentonville]

"Oh and I speak to the man who saved my life, the psychiatrist every other day on zoom when he is in Cannes and then will visit once a week when he is in Fulham"